Day 5

Day 5- A picture of your favorite memory.

I have a lot of favorite memories but this one stands out the most to me right now. The day my hubby & I took a road trip without the kids. We ate a picnic lunch in the park at Daniel Boone National Forrest then hiked 2 different trails to see Cumberland Falls & Yahoo Falls. We had such a fun & relaxing day. The time we have alone without the kids is always special to me & I think it's important for parents to have that time every now & then. We plan to take the girls here in warmer weather. Such a beautiful place! I love being outdoors and discovering all of God's creations!

Day 4

Day 4- A picture of your night.

This pretty much sums it up and it repeats every night of the week.

Already Slacking...

Day 3- A picture of the cast from your favorite show.

I love Roseanne even though all I can watch now is re-runs. I think my family is a lot like the Connor's! I am usually grouchy but try to keep a good sense of humor, never taking anything too serious. Roseanne is my role model, I want to be just like her minus about 200 lbs :-). Our kids are even similar. Catie is Becky; really into boys, prissy, embarrassed by her parents. Kayley is Darlene; Tom boyish, more independent, sarcastic. Caleb is DJ; sweet but mischievous and I think they look like too. Then she has a 4th child later in the show, a boy, which is what I am expecting! Nick is even like Dan; a family man, works hard to support his family & is always doing handy man work. I am perfectly content being compared to the Connor's as long as we leave out the acid wash jeans!

Saturday Disaster

Yesterday was a full schedule for the kids & I. I cleaned house & did laundry most of the morning, got myself & the kiddos ready to venture out for 2 birthday parties & to go shoe shopping. I do not understand how my oldest is so hard on her shoes. We usually have to buy 2-3 pair of tennis shoes within one school year. Yesterday made her 2nd pair within 5 months! Anyways, I'm getting off subject.. We had also made plans to take the kids out to eat for supper last night as well.

Getting myself & 3 kids ready to go any where is a task all in itself. The hair, the clothes, shoes, jackets etc. We had to stop to buy a gift for one of the parties then it was off to the shoe store. This is where all H-E double hockey sticks broke loose. I was so embarrassed at how my kids acted in the shoe store I literally had tears in my eyes! While attempting to try shoes on both the girls & keep Caleb from tearing down the shelves & shoes boxes, not to mention keeping him from throwing shoes all over the store & trying to put them back on the shelf in the correct spot.. I started having contractions! Braxton Hicks of course, but still uncomfortable! I also kept having back pains that hurt so bad they almost brought me to my knees. I honestly think it was from wrestling a 35 lbs kid (15lbs over my limit). I made the comment in a FB status that my kids acted like 3 hyena's on meth, and it was no joke. Although I'm not sure exactly what hyena's on meth would act like, I'm pretty sure they played the role well! Caleb is always a handful to take in any store, but the girls wouldn't cooperate either, which is unusual for them. They were arguing, wouldn't listen to me when I asked which shoes they liked, yelling at each other. I felt eyes on me, I know people had to be staring. But, I focused on the task at hand & got out of there as quickly as I could. Somehow I managed to get both the girls new shoes, in the right sizes & under the spending limit my Husband set for me! I was so mortified & exhausted by the time we left the store I just wanted to go home right then & go to bed! I took the gift in at the first party while leaving the kids sitting in the van, apologized and left. Had the 2nd party not been my Best Friend's son I would have dropped off that gift as well. I made my Mommy threats on the drive to the 2nd party, took a deep breath and prepared myself for the possible chaos that awaited me.

The kids actually behaved while at the party! Except for my son trying to eat a cigarette butt, it went well! I kept telling the kids over and over to be careful with their food... then managed to drop my plate upside down in the floor. The kids of course didn't spill a crumb, so I guess the joke was on me. Heading home from the party I debated whether or not I still wanted to go out to eat or just cook at home. My exhaustion decided for me, out to eat it was! At least my husband would be there to calm the situation had it gotten out of hand. We decided on Chinese, the kids were well behaved there as well. Needless to say, I had a good nights sleep last night. Just goes to show that kids are always a blessing but can very well be a nightmare. Doesn't make me love them any less! It does make me wonder how life will be taking 4 kids out alone. As the saying goes I will cross that bridge when I get to it.

Day 2

Day 2: A picture of me & someone I've been closest with the longest. My HUSBAND! Have I ever mentioned how much I adore love my husband. Friends come & go over the years, some drift apart and some stick around but, my husband has never ever let me down. He has always stayed by my side through everything. And I know he always will. I am so blessed to have him in my life!

30 day photo challenge

Okay, I give in. After seeing many Facebook & blog friends doing this, I figure I will jump aboard & do it too. I'm not making any promises though, I suck at committing to stuff of this nature. We shall see how long I stick to it.

Day 01 - A picture of yourself with ten facts
Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest
Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show
Day 04 - A picture of your night
Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory
Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day
Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item

Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh
Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most
Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the craziest things with
Day 11 - A picture of something you hate
Day 12 - A picture of something you love
Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist
Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without
Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die
Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you
Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently
Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity

Day 19 - A picture and a letter

Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel
Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget
Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at
Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book
Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change
Day 25 - A picture of your day
Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you
Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member

Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of
Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile
Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss
Day 31 - A picture of yourself

1. I am obsessed with playing the Word Search game on Facebook. Actually, I'm obsessed with Facebook in general.

2. I refuse to buy generic brands of laundry detergents, soaps, household cleaning supplies, toiletries etc. but I always look for the generic grocery items.. It should probably be the other way around, oh well.

3. I instantly freak out when I smell something burning. Ever since living through a house fire I guess it has made me extremely gun shy of smoke/fire.

4. I am terrified of spiders. They can sneak up on you without you ever knowing they are there... eeek!!!

5. I am probably the most indecisive person you will ever meet.

6. I couldn't live without my BlackBerry. It's more like an extra limb on my body.

7. I buy a ridiculous amount of shoes, especially high heels, knowing I will probably never wear them. My husband once told me I have enough shoes for a family of spiders, haha.

8. I dust my house everyday, even when there isn't a speck of dust in sight. I may be a little OCD. =D

9. I can't sleep unless I'm facing a wall & have a fan on for noise.

10. I am terrified to leave my curtains or blinds open at night, I am paranoid someone is looking inside my house at me, even though no one probably ever would considering I live in such a small, close knit community where everybody knows everyone.

why, Why, WHY

Why do I stress over things that are beyond my control? Why do I worry about things that I know is going to happen & me worrying over them isn't going to change it? Why do I constantly feel like someone is always out to bring me down? UGH! I know that no matter what I do there is always going to be someone that I can't please, or someone to judge the situation. I wish so bad that I could find some sort of peace with myself to take off all this stress that shouldn't even be an issue for me. It's not that I am so concerned with what people think of me, my life, my mistakes, my flaws, etc.. it's just that no matter how hard you work to better yourself, theres always someone lurking the corner waiting for you to fail. There's too many people that hold grudges. Too many people with unjust opinions, too many people to place judgement upon someone. That is certainly not our place as humans to do. I am only one woman, and I am not perfect. I wish I could meet someone that was... oh wait, no one is! Too many people forget that as well. People are always quick to point out your wrongs but forget all of theirs. Quick to pass judgement on your mistakes even if they too have made the same ones. There will always be things in this world that I do not understand, and I know that I am not suppose to understand them. All I want for myself is that balance of knowing what I should let get to me and knowing what I shouldn't. There's a saying that goes; "There are things to stress over, things to fuss over, and things to look over." But, it's up to me to figure out which is which! And I'm afraid until I can do that, I will never feel at peace with anything! I try so hard to run or hide or mask things that bother me instead of working through them. You think I would have learned by now that no matter how long you avoid your problems or issues they never go away!

I check my horoscope daily. And sometimes they are so scary accurate that it sends chills down my spine. For example this was my horoscope on the day that all this was on my mind:

You may feel like running away. You may want to turn around and escape whatever is bothering you in the world today, Libra. Many of your tribe are inclined to want to make a quick getaway when there's an issue you don't want to deal with. Although you are very fair-minded and justice-oriented, you do not like to deal with conflict that is sometimes associated with making things right. You would be much better off today if you stand and face whatever is bugging you, and work through it. It's not as bad as you think, and will actually lead to major improvement in some area of your life.

I know all of this is true and I know what it would take to be better off but why is it so hard to do it? why, Why, WHY